MY BFF!

So instead of being an attempt at graphics and what not. It’ll just be posts of inspiration and photos I’m taking. I’m currently in Boston attending Harvard Summer School. Life is intense, but I just had my last classes today! Who knew college would be so hard? Well, I’ll be flying back to California next Saturday after my finals. Then on August 12^th, I’ll be heading back to China and starting school after a week.

Haha, my mind is already in a terrible frenzy. As you can see, the layout is going through a major change and definitely very different. I am not pro and just cannot handle all the colors and matching and making different links and what not. This will be a very nice and simple blog! Yay!

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I am. Finally done. With my stupid freaking APs. And good luck to all those that took them. They were freaking brutal and I’m just so glad that everything is done and over with. I’m going to be doing a whole bunch of crap to this site.

Numero Uno. Layout change. This dark eerie thing going on with my current layout is BORING. And I really need to start fixing up rawrpink.org since I just got a warning from my host that I was being inactive. I feel horrible, but I’ve forgotten the password so I can’t really do much about it. Eep. I’m so sorry to all my affiliates. I wouldn’t be surprised if you all deleted me. I SUCK!

Numero Dos. I think I’m going to get a haircut. I’ve had these bangs for less than a year and I’m getting bored. Stupid sidebangs. I want to get something along the lines of Taylor Momsen but def. more age appropriate. She definitely has the cute rocker style going on but she looks so unhappy all the time! She’s only 15 (?), cheer up! She’s basically world-famous while I’m stuck here doing freaking NWEA testing. Anyone heard of that? Apparently it’s useless but it’s mandatory. High school sucks.

Numero Tres Prom is coming up. Yeahyeah, what’s a sophomore doing thinking about prom. Well, when your high school consists of a little over 100 students, you’re going to have to invite even the freshman. Haha. We even have an 8^th grader going, which is sort of sad and our student council president is a huge douche. Sorry. You are. I don’t like you one bit and it sucks to people feel sorry for you. I try to be nice. But it gets hard when you’re cocky as hell. Oh looky there, my little rant of the day.

Numero Cuatro HOLY CRAP. I HAVE NEVER WATCHED GREY’S ANATOMY EVER. IN MY LIFE. Cause I thought it was stupid. But I got bored and watched the last FOUR EPISODES. Season finale = OMGOHSFOADJFDJS. Thoughts?

Like all of you know, AP exams are in less than two weeks so I’m going just cramming for hours each day and really have no time to do anything online. But by May 16^th, everything will be fine and dandy and I’ll only have the play to worry about!

YESYESYEYSEYSESY.

I’m going through this withdrawal where I really want to move back to the States. I left 7 years ago and only go back for yearly visits to see friends and such, but now I just want to move back. My friend has a house in Tennessee and I went there with her two summers ago and we stayed there for a month, basically by ourselves and it was so crazily awesome. I’ve been hearing about the swine flu going around America. Can someone tell me what’s going on? Some people are making it sound really bad so I’m a bit worried.

Anyway, adieu. Did I spell that right? o_o

Oh yes, on an important note, if I don’t reply your comments, it’s because I can’t get onto your site! It might be because I live in China and they randomly block random sites!

Okay, so some stuff is really getting to my head right now. I have a friend. A great friend. We’re like, heart to heart, best friends since the beginning of middle school and we’re actually planning to move to Nashville, Tennessee for senior year in high school. This weekend though, I went over to her house and was waiting in her room when I saw this beautiful notebook and decided to open it. Which is when I saw my name written inside. Instead of what you’d expect such as you know, ‘So Julia and I went to the mall…’, it was more of a list of how she wanted to beat me at school and sports and how she got pissed off because also became a student journalist. It’s just so weird. I really thought she would be happy for me and she was the one who set up my interview. If she didn’t want me to join, then, it’s just. Aghh. We went through a rough patch last year when she began to hang out with her boyfriend and ditched me for everything, but during the summer, he cheated on her, so that was all done and gone. So, it sort of hurts me that she’d write all this crap and still be able to put a smile on her face whenever she sees me.

And then, I read something that really disturbed me. Yes, maybe it was wrong to read through the diary, but when you see your name written in one, I don’t think any of you could help put that diary down. It’s just, argh. And I read something so disturbing that I sort of sat down in shock. I’m not sure why I’m letting this all our on my blog, but no one really knows about this blog. =/ Hopefully, so I’m just letting it all out because it’s been welled up inside me all weekend. When your supposed BFFL engaged in oral sex and told a guy she’d been talking to for a few months instead of telling that person she’s known for 5 years, it’s just ARGH.

Holy crap. So yeah. Sorry I let all this out and put it on all y’all’s plates.

She’s almost 48. And I’m so disappointed she wasn’t discovered earlier! Here’s to one of the faster loading videos of her audition on Perez Hilton.

If you watch it, I’m serious, the audience just pisses me off. When she gets on stage, the mockery begins and they laugh at her because of her age and appearance. The girls face at 1:23 makes me want to slap her. I’d like to see her get up there. You can kind of tell Simon and whatever that other British’s judge’s name is are both totally expecting someone “trying” to sing. But once she opens her mouth, jeez, I know I’m emotional, but yeah, I cried. It was so freaking beautiful.

That’s what I don’t get. Why do you have to be beautiful to be in the media industry? She’s like a hidden talent that hasn’t been discovered because people look past her just because of her looks. Which is what our society has become, I guess. Most times, the better you look, the higher you get in society because the more you “appeal” to the general audience? I have no idea. But this video is a huge wake-up call for our ever drowning society.

Anyhoo, the good thing is, although my singing failed me during my auditions, I got a lead role in the play! Woot. I’m lucky this play wasn’t so much of a musical or I’d probably have to play an old lady with one line (circa 2004) or be in a play about an apple and then have the audience ask you what the hell the play was about (circa 2005). Haha. if you think about it, 2004 and 2005 are pretty far away. I mean, it’s been 4-5 years! Freaking-a, I was around 10 back then loved wearing my skort (skirt + shorts) with ankle high socks. Oh dear. If only I could be an ’80’s child.

So, all else aside, I’m trying SO HARD NOT TO LET THE SMALL THINGS BOTHER ME. Such as. School. And homework. And tests. When I’m 35 and working my dream job interior designing, I’m probably not going to give crap about logarithms or how to solve the pH of a buffer when a 54.6 mL of a strong acid is added. Woop.

What’s your dream job?

If anyone goes to school with an American system, you probably know AP exams are coming up. This is going to be an epically stressful month, and since I’m in drama class, it was mandatory for me to audition for the Fall play. Which I did. And failed. My monologue from Julius Caesar was better than I thought, but when he asked me to sing, my voice got stuck and I forgot the lyrics. Crap. Oh well. So, with the other site coming up and AP exams, there won’t be many updates, but I’ll try to save active as soon as I can. As soon as the second full week of May is over, I’ll have two classes where I basically don’t do ANYTHING. SO YAY FOR ME!

Once again, I joined another SOTM, which I don’t really remember joining. It must’ve been pretty early in the morning. Have a heart and vote. Haha. Or don’t, it really doesn’t matter, it’s all fun and games.
Vote for Artiste here!
Vote for Artiste here!
Vote for Artiste here!

So, April Fools is over. Who did anything for April Fools? I totally forgot about it cause I’m an idiot. Oh yes, I have one thing to say. Leggings are not pants. I’m sorry if you disagree with me. There’s a reason they are called leggings and not pants. Please don’t make life anymore difficult. Our school has a uniform policy, navy blue collared shirt and khaki/navy/black pants or skirts or whatever. No one exactly wears their uniform, but they follow the color code. Just recently, we had a new girl in our class who wears a hoodie, leggings and a pair of boots. Please, I don’t want to see your butt hanging out when you stand in front of me in math class. I mean, she’s a nice person, but when she complains how the Koreans in our school never wear uniform, I wanna knuckle-smash her face in.

Thank you.

So, I decided to go and get myself involved in some SOTMs. So, if you have maybe a few seconds-minutes (really depending on how fast your connection is and maybe what browser you’re using), maybe you could click the link above and do some oober cool voting. Somehow, I already had a vote, so cheers to whoever that anonymous, awesome person is. Hiphip hurrah! If you don’t want to, it’s fine, but you’ll forever walk around with a guilty conscience hanging about you like apples on a tree. Yeah, that metaphor probably didn’t make any sense.

Anyhew!, I went to bed at 6:30 AM today. Working on this. Darn, I’ve become an oober geek. But at least it shows I’m dedicated. Haha, well, I deleted 3/4 of my icons and remade all of them, edited my credits page, edited my footer, validated my CSS, attempted to validate my HTML (got pissed and gave up), fixed my layout, fixed the background, fixed the sidebar and commented a whole bunch of people. HECK YEAH, I’ve never done so much my entire life.

Desiree’s recent blog entry about diseases that doctors can’t even figure out really got me thinking. How we’re always complaining about life and there are so many people out there suffering. I was watching a documentary about a girl who had skin cancer and she had this huge, black tumor right on her face. It covered her right eye, her whole nose and almost her whole mouth so it was extremely difficult for her to breathe. She lived in rural China, but some doctors were nice enough to give her surgery and you could see her whole face. Seriously, she’s a beautiful, little girl, but the tumor destroyed her face. They thought she was fine afterwards and she returned to school, but two months later she died. It’s really unfortunate and I was crying my guts out.

Aside from all the sadness, I watched that dog movie that’s been going around the theaters this Christmas or something. Marley and Me. I didn’t expect it to be good, but it’s actually sort of entertaining but the ending is difficult to get through. I’m such an epically emotional person.

Anyhoo~, back to the scene kids I wish to smash in the face with a frying pan. Okay, sure, it’s a form of expressions and, yes, I should respect how they want to dress, and guess what, I’m fine with it. Do whatever you want. If you like it, do it, but calling yourself “scene” and asking, “Hey, where do you get those scene hairbands from?” (Okay, first off, never label accessories, gosh, I swear I will stab you a million times with my green Papermate pen) (Second off, they aren’t “scene” hairbands. Those are hairbands used to put your hair up when you’re playing basketball or soccer.) Yes, this is a true-case scenario. I wanted to rip my hair out. SO, MISS OH-I’M-SO-EMO-AND-SCENE, stick it. Before I help you. Do whatever. Heckyeah.

I no longer know what I am talking about. If you disagree, you can argue, but I’m not going to start a fight. Just voicing an opinion in my head that’s been stuck there long enough. Anyway, for those bored out of their mind or wanting to STICK SOME EDUCATIONAL JUICE IN THE BOX INSIDE YOUR FOREHEAD, you should read World Without End. This is truthfully a great book and it looks all mumbo jumbo like a history book, but it’s AWESOME and some people have been waiting for this for a decade. So, it’s gotta be good, right?

On another note, how is everyone feeling the layout? Yes, no? It’s probably one of my most favorite layouts up to date. I don’t know. I’m no pro here, I’ll leave it up to you guys. Haha. I’m trying to be as active as possible because I hate having to rebuild my site every time I become interested again. YIPYIPYIP.

Also, I need some help from you crazy FanUpdate experts. I sort of need to know 1) How to integrate my darn CSS into FanUpdate and 2) Why every time I update an entry, it NO LONGER SHOWS UP! -insert angry face-

Ooh, this is me testing the blockquote. I wonder what it’ll look like…Please be pretty.

Anyway, as all of you can glorify before your eyes. Yes, this is FanUpdate. Cutenews is no longer. Yeah, and he shall never be called Mr. Cute again, well, frankly, that kid wasn’t cute at all. All I wanted to do was to smash his bits and pieces in with a dodgeball and then ground it up into my hamburger. Which I probably wouldn’t be able to eat. And guess who was the almighty human that helped me install FanUpdate and basically did everything for me because I am the world’s largest n00b. Shur is. Yeah, she basically spent an hour on me because I had no idea how to use MySQL since I have a subdomain and no cpanel. Darn the internet world, -shakes fast angrily-.

Besides that, I’m on Spring Break right now, but it’s almost over. I’ve done nothing and probably gained a few kilograms. Heck yeah, I go by the metric system even though I’m American, but it’s so much easier multiplying and dividing by tens and hundreds rather than trying to remember that 12 inches equals a foot. (Let’s gather in a circle and pray that’s right).

Recently, I’ve been listening to Lisa Hannigan. She probably has the world’s most beautiful voice and if you people don’t go onto Itunes and purchase her song, I will come after you with a meat cleaver. If I knew where any of you lived. Also, if any of you don’t see your name on the affiliates area to your right, that’s because you are no placed on my affiliates page. The reason should be pretty obvious. I’ve probably been taken down a few sites, but oh well, I’m here to blog, not gain 28395082309583209 hits.

Oh yeah, I baked for the second time ever in my life. My friend took pictures and I would gladly go steal them from her fabulous camera but she’s currently far far away. I shall post the disastrous results I’ve created in the oven.

And, I got my ears pierced again on Monday. This time, they didn’t turn out so great. My ears are now red and swollen and I had to take my piercings out and place in a special kind of earring to cool the swelling, but the hole on my ear wasn’t large enough, plus it seemed like there was something blocking the hole on the other side. Thus, I stood there pretty much in pain and agony, screaming like a pig in the slaughterhouse as my dad forced the earring through my ear. I heard something pop so that probably wasn’t that greatest news I got all day. The hole was bleeding and I just took a painkiller since the pain is pretty much excruciating, yet I am still able to blog about it. Yeah, that’s me. -insert That’s So Raven theme song-