Surprisingly, I have been spending time offline! I feel the need to show you what has been taking over my life (other than fandoming over boys, Jim Sturgess being one of them, and fighting the cold) lately and just so you know I’m not dead of the Valentine’s Day blues (though I do do feel dead: my nose is clogged, and I’m saying things funny). 
And because I care I’ll attach a picture:
That’s my current progress on my sand/salt tower (lulz). Arts and Crafts are awesome, I just need supplies like more Purple, Blue, Green, and Orange chalk.
When people come to visit Chicago, they usually choose to come in the Winter. Well the truth is Winter in Chicago sucks (take in mind, I’m not one to emphasize my words). I spent 30 minutes outside waiting to get picked up. Snow forming on my hat, I (stupidly) wasn’t wearing my scarf at the time. I wore my favorite socks with a hole in them, and a pair Chucks. Usually winter jacket is really good at keeping me warm, but decided to fail me this time. I also wore my knit (really old) gloves.
I paced the sidewalk counting the seconds. I talked to two strangers (one looking for directions to Timbuktu, and a lady complaining about snow), and I saw a woman with a fox like dog, and I traced patterns in the snow with my shoe. My super long (flared) jeans were coated in snow, and my shoes which have eyelets on the side let in a lot of snow. My feet were cold and wet, my head was congested, and I really didn’t want to be there. My fingers were/are frozen.
I’m sitting at home right now, pretending my heated apple juice is warm cider, and wearing a hat and a scarf indoors. *le sigh* Winter I love you, but you’re bringing me down.
9/22/08: Breakdown = I was stressed. I couldn’t do all this anymore. I made two entries already talking about how I was going to handle this site and all my other sites.’
(order: game plan, site plan, final plan)
I realize if I go on like this, that I’m never going to be happy. I just need to let things rest. I need to relax. This all came to me yesterday night at 1:00 PM. I never sleep well when things have to change.
Its the first week of my winter break. But I’m just so stressed out.
I want to add new content to the site. I have to make sure I trade at least 2 patches a month for the Q*Bee. I want to stay active at my Message Boards. I have to make a layout a month. I want an active social life. If I can’t handle this now, how can I handle it with school and everything else. I have so many responsibilities.
On top of that: oncoming projects and sites. I personally love this one too much to put it on hold, but of all my other ones? I’m just never going to be happy, or satisfied if I don’t let some things go, or down. I’m very confused.
I don’t know if I can actually do this. I just want to cut back to posting here, staying active at my message boards, checking my email, making new layouts, trading at the Q*Bee, making sure my friends don’t hate me, and that’s all. I don’t have the time and effort anymore.
Lets try to keep it at that.
